I managed to write my daily amount of words and even caught up a bit. I’m now a bit less than 3 days behind. Writing today went quite well. I still think that all I write is total crap and refuse to read it in order to prevent me from losing the little motivation which might be left but often this is a normal feeling for me. This also happens at work when I have to work on a very tricky patent application and can’t find the right words to describe the invention. I write and rewrite several times always accompanied by the feeling of total failure but in the end when I start to read it over it is quite ok and there isn’t much to criticize about it. I can only hope that this will also be the case with this manuscript.
At least the plot is starting to develop and after writing a lot of background for my world I begin to feel that now I can move more freely with my characters. In the beginning any plot is very limited because I first have to establish a view facts about the world I write. But now I think the reader will already have some idea of what is going on and so I have more space to let my characters act out the plot. I still haven’t figured out how exactly my main antagonist is going to act or what the deeper motivation of him will be but I hope that this will develop during writing when I come to that point.
